How i wish i could call your name

"There's more life left to go."how i wish i could call your name is the first of two mixtapes created for Carson Mackenzie. It was released on December 14, 2015 on 8tracks.

The mixtape mainly describes Carson's feelings about her chronic illness, her deceased childhood friend, Joshua, and her roommate-turned-lover, Lizzie. It also hints at her relationship with Sasha Rodriguez. As the playlist was released during the series' early stages of development, it is no longer accurate in regards to Joshua's role in her life.

The second mixtape for Carson is ghost, released on January 9, 2017.

The cover is of a woman with her head bowed, a pose that may denote "exhaustion, defeat, struggle." In contrast, skies, especially one with clouds with silver linings, can signify hope, among other things (?).

Track listing

 * 1) "Seasons" - Hollow Wood - Seasons EP (2014) - 6:04
 * 2) "Anthem" - Alana Yorke - Dream Magic (2015) - 5:06
 * 3) "Letters to God, Part II (The Architect) (Piano Cover)" - Matthew Beach - Single (2011) - 3:45
 * 4) *original: "Letters To God, Part II" - Angels & Airwaves - Love (2010) - 4:06
 * 5) "Desire" - Ryan Adams - Demolition (2002) - 3:41
 * 6) "Photograph" - Ed Sheeran - X (Deluxe Edition) (2004) - 4:18
 * 7) "Change My Name" - Trading Yesterday - More Than This (2011) - 3:35
 * 8) "Life Left to Go" - Safetysuit - Life Left to Go (2008) - 5:56
 * 9) "The Planets Bend Between Us" - Snow Patrol - A Hundred Million Suns (Deluxe Version) (2008) - 4:16

Cut Tracks
The Majority Says - "Run Alone" If I couldn't steal a broken heart I would rather feel, nothing at all I would rather see, a miss jury I fall apart, bit by bitI I fall apart, a bit, a bit, a bit But I keep on running I run alone And I keep on walking Walk without the door And I keep on running I run alone And I keep on walking, soon I will be gone And i keep on running And I keep on running I'm running with me Will i make it stop I cannot see I try to open up to enemies Try to open my infinity Fall apart, bit by bit Fall apart a bit, a bit, a bit, a bit But I keep on running I run alone And I keep on walkin Walk without the door And I keep on running I run alone And I keep on walking Soon I will be gone And I keep on running And I keep on running Alone, by keep Alone, by keep But I keep on running I run alone And I keep on walking Walk without the door And I keep on running I run alone But I keep on walking Soon I will be gone Alone (and I keep on running) By keep (I run alone) And i keep on walking Walk without the door And I keep on running I run alone And i keep on walking Soon I will be gone And I keep on running And I keep on running And I keep on running And I Keep on running Alone, by keep
 * The Majority Says' "Run Alone" was cut because it did fit with the tone of the mix.